Their Lovin, My Oven

My Journey as a Gestational Surrogate

Super Powers December 1, 2011

Holy Moly Guacamole, folks! It’s December 1st! Do you have any idea what that means? Well, do ya? If you’re going to say that it means you better get started on your Christmas shopping, you’re probably right – But not for purposes of this blog. Try again.

December 1st means…. That…. THESE PRECIOUS LITTLE BOYS WILL BE HERE THIS MONTH!!! Oh yeah, you read that right. In 18 days or less, Davide & Gabriel will make their grand entrance into this world at the most amazing time of year. What better time for two precious little miracles to be born than right before Christmas?! Craziness. This pregnancy has absolutely flown by sooo quickly. Theoretically I could go into labor any day, and since Esteban & Michele arrived to our house 2 days ago, that would be okay. According to a perinatologist at the hospital I will be delivering at, 60% of twins are born before 37 weeks. That’s super for 60% but I am DETERMINED to be part of the minority and keep these little boys baking until at least that point. Tomorrow marks 36 weeks which is a HUGE milestone for twins, especially mono/di identical twins. We’ve made it this far, no reason the boys can’t keep up their residency at the Bambino Hotel for another 10ish days. Say it with me, people. 37 weeks, here we come!

We’ve been thoroughly enjoying every single second with E & M. They are staying at our house right now and I wouldn’t want them to be anywhere else. That might not be the relationship that everyone has with their IPs, but it is what we want and what works for all of us. I love having them here to be able to feel anytime one of the boys moves and to just enjoy their company while we wait for the big day. Last night they even got to feel one of the boys having the hiccups! Super adorable 🙂 We’ve been getting things ready for the boys arrival and taking advantage of my nesting phase and washing all their teeny, tiny adorable little clothes, shopping for more teeny, tiny adorable little clothes, getting the car seats set up, etc. I am so thankful that E & M are allowing us to be a part of them preparing for their angels. It means the world to me to help them pick out bottles, diapers, outfits, etc. They even involve our girls which just warms my heart. The more I see how they interact with my kids, and how much my girls love them, the more it just reaffirms what I already know – They are going to be the BEST Daddies and Davide & Gabriel are two super lucky little boys.

 

As we get closer and closer to delivery, I have a million emotions running through me at any given time. You think that you know how you’re going to feel when you start out your journey as a surrogate, but it’s never for sure… So for those of you starting your journey and wondering what it might be like, here’s how it is for me.

I’m nervous – I have to deliver not one, but two babies. This is obviously my first time doing so and that makes me slightly nervous. Not only that, but these aren’t my babies. I’m carrying and will be delivering E & Ms angels. Their babies and their FAMILY are in my hands (and those of the doctors.) I pray every single night that God allows us to have a completely “normal” delivery with no complications so that E & M can look back on the day their children were born and remember how amazing it was, just as I look back and remember how amazing the births of my children were.

 

I’m anxious – I just can’t wait to see the look on E & Ms faces the first time they hold their sons. I’ve been picturing it since we met in January and envisioning how it’s going to feel. I doubt that there are words to describe how it will feel and I just cannot wait!

 

I’m proud – As I help prepare for the twins to arrive, it hits me how different this delivery is going to be. Not in the physical sense but in the emotional sense. I’m not “just” delivering a baby. Not that delivering your own children isn’t amazing and a miracle – It of course is. It’s the whole reason I wanted to be a surrogate in the first place – To give someone the gift of parenthood. BUT this time I’m not just delivering a baby (or two.) I’m creating a family. I don’t even know how to describe how that feels. Thinking about it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I know I already said it, but I’m just SO excited to see E & M holding their babies. I am so thankful that God has allowed me to be a part of such a miraculous process. That’s my super power this year – Creating a family. I’m pretty darn lucky.

 

Until next time… Lots of love!

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