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My Journey as a Gestational Surrogate

A Nod to the Universe… October 11, 2012

Even if you aren’t a believer in signs or good omens or anything of the sort, these horoscopes are hard to ignore. Thanks, universe. We need this.

 

My horoscope:

You deserve a wonderful weekend. Lately, you have had too much to contend with and you are still feeling tired and drained from this. Worse, your guard is up. You keep expecting new difficulties to arise at any moment and fear that even the most hopeful developments will start turning into mirages that vanish as soon as you get close to them. Yet even if you have been suffering out in the desert of disappointment, you are now nearing a genuine jungle where hope grows high and rivers of reassurance flow freely.

 

M’s horoscope:

Either you have to trust that a process is taking place in its own sweet time… or you have to take control, manage a project, push for a result and drive a situation forward with your own sheer determination. That’s a perfectly viable plan. It’s what many people do every day, with some degree of success, albeit a fair degree of stress. But why waste energy where none really needs to be expended. In your life now, there’s a natural sequence of events taking place and you are safe, to some extent this weekend, to rely on these.

 

T’s horoscope:

How deep is the ocean? How far does it go? Only people who spend a lot of time on boats really know the answer to this. For most of us, the sea is just a big mass of water that you spot when you get to the end of the land. But it stretches out far beyond the horizon. Indeed, it covers so many miles that we can hardly comprehend its vastness, even in our imagination. Within your heart there is an ocean of love, hope and faith. Somehow, this weekend, life brings you an opportunity to sail out and explore a host of positive possibilities.

 

Read into it as you wish – Me, I’m choosing to read exactly as it says. The universe wants this baby for M&T just  almost as much as the three of us do.

 

LT – Sweet, sweet Little Tot – You are already so very loved and so very wanted. Your Mommy and Daddy love you more than life itself and I can’t wait to see them holding you for the first time. I have every faith that you are growing big and strong right now and cannot wait to see your precious heartbeat on Sunday. So many people are pulling for you. Stay with us sweet little bean ❤

 

❤ Auntie Danielle & LT

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PUPO October 6, 2012

I know I owe you all an update and you have my most sincere apologies that it has taken SO long. Without further delay, here’s our transfer story – How I got PUPO – Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise.

 

After nearly missing my flight due to a ton of unexpected traffic on the 405 (thank you SoCal fires! NOT) I made it to SF in the evening on Friday September 14th. M&T picked me up at the airport and we all went out for an amazing Italian dinner. That day was the 1 year anniversary of when I lost my Papa so I welcomed the distraction of such an exciting day to come. After dinner we got all checked into the hotel (which was beautiful) and spent a little more time together talking about everything under the sun before M&T headed home and we all turned in for the night.

 

Our transfer on Saturday September 15th was not scheduled until 1:00p (well that’s the time they asked us to be at the clinic) so we were all a little lazy at the hotel, enjoyed a breakfast in my room, talked some more and then it was time to get all decked out in our good luck gear. And boy, oh boy did we have the good luck charms covered. We both had lucky socks, mine the rainbow ones I wore when I got pregnant with my surrotwins and M’s four leaf clovers – I had my lucky BumpFairy shirt – M had a lucky sock monkey from a group of friends she and T have that are also fighting infertility – We had a very special bracelet from our Sassy sisters – And we had bracelets that I had made by the amazing Sabrina at BangleSnaps (click on the company name to check her out on FB!) The bracelets each had several stones that symbolized various good luck, calming, healing vibes and even IVF success. They were beautiful and it was wonderful to surprise M with them. Here is a pic:

Our beautiful BangleSnaps transfer bracelets ❤

The very special Sassy bracelet and journal plus a First Response Pregnancy Test with lots of preggo dust on it! LOL

 

After getting dripped in luck, we headed to a local deli for a light lunch. The sandwiches were delicious and the perfect thing to be full but not too full before it was time for Little Tot to snuggle in with Auntie Danielle.

 

We arrived at Zouves Fertility Center just before 1pm, filled out some paperwork and then the wait began. Before too long we were called back into Dr. Zouves’ office. He gave us a report on how beautifully M&Ts Little Tot had been thawing out the day before and she was just perfect! She scored as high as he scores embies so we were all very pleased with that!
Once we all got suited up in our fancy scrubs and head gear, we were taken back to the transfer room. We got to watch Little Tot being placed in the catheter and it was THE coolest thing I have ever seen. He/She was MOVING around like crazy in the petri dish! M&T are going to have their hands full! 😉

 

Ready for Transfer!!!

 

Transfer of M&Ts sweet Little Tot was completed right around 2pm PST on 9/15 and couldn’t have gone any more smooth than it did. Once transfer was done, the weekend of being completely LAZY was in full swing. T was amazing to M and I – He went out and brought us back food, the Wii, laptops, etc. I wasn’t even allowed to get up and get my own ice! Since I’m used to being a full time Mommy, it felt SO weird to be the one laying around doing nothing but T assured me I was doing something very important and working much harder than him to bake their sweet baby 😉 M&T spent a TON of time at the hotel with me which I LOVED. We talked about so many things, gave Little Tot aka LT so much love and I thoroughly enjoyed every single moment.

 

After an incredibly lazy and blessed weekend and some lovely flight crap (don’t fly American Airlines, people) I was headed back home on Monday afternoon. It was SO hard to say goodbye to M&T but I felt so positive that things were going to be great and I promised to take great care of LT until we saw them again.

 

At 5dp5dt (5 days past our 5 day transfer) I got to talk to M on the phone and give her some pretty great news.

 

Does this even need a caption?! LOVE it ❤

 

10dp5dt we had our beta blood draw to tell us how much HCG Little Tot was producing. Keep in mind that my beta on the same day with Esteban & Michele’s angels was 153…. Imagine my surprise/shock when M called me to give me the good news – Beta was 193!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are as pregnant as we can be right now! LOL. My friends and family definitely have been making the multiples jokes but I don’t think lightning can possibly strike the same surro twice and give M&T identical twins LOL.

Two days later at 12dp5dt, we had another beta. A doubling time of 48 hours is ideal so we were looking for a number of approx 390. Imagine my surprise/shock YET AGAIN when M called. Did we have a 48 hour doubling time? No sir/ma’am we did not. LT is an over achiever! With a doubling time of less than 31 hours, our beta was 574!!!!

 

After two very positive betas, we got a date for our heartbeat ultrasound! On October 14th, in ONE WEEK, I will be headed up to SF to see M&T and we will all get to witness an amazing moment.

 

Nothing is for sure with IVF/Surrogacy/Pregnancy and it’s been a long road for M&T so I’m staying 100% positive for all three  four of us that everything will be great and sometime around June 2 2013, M&T will be holding their precious baby. Please send us your good thoughts and extra prayers if you have them. I will update again after u/s.

 

Love, Danielle